a walk to remember

i've finally applied for uni. yay. went back to hc today to get my recommendation letter for scholarship from ms lin jus now... weather so hot la. and i had to travel such a loooong distance back all alone. sigh. no one i can ask to pei me there sobs. had a lil talk with ms lin. and realised we were kinda neighbours back then before i moved house. haha. she's from chongfu primary.. ahh... i spent like 1h plus travelling there and another 1h plus back. but i only spent like 15min in sch. ayerr.

walking to the gate, the bus stop, waiting for 961. every step reminded me of you. i cant believe how much this affects me. perhaps you're right when you say i duno how to let go. indeed i dont. taking 961, seeing all the landmarks that the vehicle passed. everything. getting off at the interchange, changing to 962. every step i take. it hurts.

it's amazing how time flies. amazing how things change. amazing how things over there change. amazing how i see them unfold thru the one-way glass i see. amazing how i go through so much to find out your progress. amazing how indifference lingers. amazing how acknowledgement still exists through a broken tie. why. why is it you can say hi to my friends but not me?? why? do you really hate me so much.. cos i don. i neva did.

the tears and heartache he gave me. you're giving me jus as much. right now. how promises shatter. how eternity neva stays.

i don even know if you still read this. i don think so. altho some part of me. or rather most part of me wants you to. but i see you're happy there. then i guess. it's fine.